the disadvantage of advantages

i feel that i've invested unnecessary time, money, love and effort. i was supposed to be that person. but i'm not. call it fake? nah. call it choosin? nah, it's a mistake i've brought upon myself. the selflessness that i could've gave to someone who actually appreciated what i've done. i'm a stepping stone to your self fulfillment. maybe i'm trippen, maybe i'm not. but believe me when i say, no more mister nice guy.

new year, same shit

time has passed. damn near four months. i should be fine, but i'm not. i should have high hopes, but i'm at an all time low. never felt such a painful feeling of regret.