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These last few weeks have been so distasteful. Wondering when life will throw me something sweet.

PURSUIT of Happiness.

Like how Will Smith put it into perspective, the pursuit of happiness. Will I ever attain it? Or will I just continue to participate in the ongoing pursuit of everyone's ultimate desire. I hope that we all know to not sweat the bumps in the road, but to just keep pushing towards the destination.

Want/Need

For the most part the days have become easier. But most days I have that feeling where I just miss having a woman. I can't determine whether or not it's a want or a need. Hah I just miss late night phone conversations, good morning/night texts, all that shit. And I always seem to want what I can't have.

Shadows in the Sunshine

Even when things are going good, there's always something wrong parallel with it. I got all these hopes but should I keep pushing for what I want or should I just stand down. I can't even sketch an idea of what's going on.

Sunrise

The storm has been weathered. The pain has been chewed up and spat out. My days have gotten easier and my attention has shifted into other parts yet in the same area. Completely unexpected and not fully understood just yet. Don't know if I'm the only person feeling the way I'm feeling or what, haha too timid to ask. Too soon to tell. So I'm gonna let time do it's thang.

Another Day

It's just another day. She wants nothing to do with me. What can I say to that? I guess nothing. She's gone too deep with dude...who's just a fake ass sucka all around...but if she wants to make that mistake I'm not gonna hold her. It's so hard because her being there as a friend to talk to on a daily basis really helped me out. Now as I have to deal cold turkey from this woman, I have to learn to be alone again. I have to surround myself with the people that love me the most. I can't do nothing about it but continue to better myself and my life. I'm never going to stop loving her. And if my first love, my world decides to come back...it will be another day.

Hope x Patience

Things have taken a slight turn. She says she still feels the same way, but I got a feeling that I need to keep fighting for what I want. I'm not saying it's gonna happen overnight, but I'm willing to put up a fight for Love. Patience is a virtue, time won't hurt you, it can only heal. But I hope she comes to her senses.