Breakdown

I think I've just reached that point. I have all these emotions put into one. I'm angered, heartbroken, lost, lonely, and disappointed in myself. I want to hate her cause I'm letting all my emotion out. But I still love her so much. And people are so fake acting like they'll be there for me and they'll congratulate her on leaving me. So fake. I honestly feel like my fucking walls are closing in on me. I feel so weak for feeling like this. And I pray to God asking for some help every night.