Song On Repeat

I didn't show up for class today. I can't just sit in class with her, knowing she's not mine. That she doesn't love me. The only thing constant is change. But how constant? It's been almost a month. The pain has settled in. Embedded in my heart and mind. I have had to endure this on a daily basis. And it just won't stop. I keep running back through the events that occurred. It's like a sad song on repeat. I can't erase the pain so I'm just trying to put it under my pillow. Sleep has been the only thing to take my mind off shit. But I still wake every hour, I'm used to just being able to call her whenever I want. Now she ignores my calls...I wish I never fucked up.